...Logan is coming home soon. Or so I heard. When I eavesdropped. Days ago. I don't know why I don't feel as guilty as I should be. Maybe because I do have the right to know what's happening with my brother. Or what's going to happen to him.

If that sounded so horrible to you..you are very well entitled to your own opinion. Mixed feelings are playing inside of me. I don't know what I'll do when I see him. Finally, after all the commotion. And not only that...I'll be living with him every single day. I don't know how he expects us to act around him. And although I did..and do miss him...is it too early to show him that? I tried to email him about it before. But I turned into a cat. A very scared one. I'm not scared of him. I'm scared to admit that he's still my favorite brother..that I still love him, no changes, even after..that fateful incident. I know Mary Anne got hurt and traumatized..but I'm sorry for still caring about my bro. After all of it..I worried only about him and no one else. Sure, I pretended I was angry at him. For everything. I wanted him to suffer after his crime. But I couldn't push it to the very end. I felt so weak.

Just imagining him feeling alone and lonely, confused and blaming himself..hurts me. Hurts me more than it should.

I care. I care. I care. Yes. But does he?

I'm so bored...Random and not-so-random people, comment..I'm dying of boredom.

I miss Byron so much.

He..

He was always there for me. He was the only one who truly cared for me. Whenever I was with him, I just felt special. Something that I just don't feel that often. Every time I had a problem, I just leaned on him and he listened and he was just..there. And now, just when I need him so badly...

I can't reach him. He's gone. Everything's finished.

..The world hates me.

Well, I'm back after all the holiday rush and daddy fights whatevers. Just updating. : p

How're you guys?

I dyed my hair black, if you guys haven't noticed yet. I mean, if you haven't noticed yet, that's just..weird. You're in badly need of glasses or contacts. If you want to know the whole story, just drop by. I don't want to spread it all over the net.

Oh, and special welcomes to Sara and Dani. You guys rock. \m/

I hate my life. My parents received a letter in the mail saying that I suck at science..like they never get used to it, and I need a tutor. Guess who my tutor is..Jordan Pike! Could my life get any worse? Jordan Pike out of all people. This is the crazy. I hope Haley doesn't find out. She's going to hate me even more. Me, Nessa, and Haley were best friends...until Haley decided to take sides with Jordan. She's as bad as Jordan...almost.

Well, we're back. I had the best time at Camp Mohawk. Everyone who didn't go this year, should go next year. It was awesome. Well, actually, mostly I'm talking about the dance. Byron and I are together again. Really makes me happy.
Well, just wanted to say hi to everyone...again. But then again, I'm leaving to Sea City with the Pikes'. So many adventures this summer. : D

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

Yup, it's true! Camp Mohawk's back! Even though it's in a few days, I thought of reminding everyone that still might want to sign up. I know they're accepting late applications, so just leave me a message if you want to sign up for either a camper, CIT (counselor in training), or a counselor. Vanessa signed up with me as CIT's. I think they might need some boy CITs too. Kristy, I bet you signed up as a counselor last year too. I'm hoping you're going to be the counselor of our cabin. Maybe the rest of your friends could become counselors too, if they aren't already. I can't wait! It starts next week Monday, though! CITs and counselors, don't forget there's going to be a dance too. Find your partners.

So sad right now. Guess what I did. I broke up with my boyfriend, Byron Pike. Why did I do it? Well, maybe because it had to do with the parties, and the drinking, and all the peer pressure Byron's been having, and he listens to his so-called friends. Some friends...Bet Byron thinks his friends would hate him if he didn't drink.